Showing posts with label hunger pang. Show all posts
Showing posts with label hunger pang. Show all posts

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Still 118? Really?

Yesterday I was negative calories and somehow I have only stayed the same weight. i hate it when that happens! I must have drunk too  much water or consumed too much salt? I hardly ate so I am not sure about the salt. But I kept getting hunger pangs so I kept drinking water. Anyway I kept repeatedly getting on the scale. Like 7 times in a row and 118 every time. ugh i hate that scale... so today i have to be more extreme i suppose. yesterday i went to my favorite grocery store: aldi. they always have tons of fresh produce and it is always cheap! i got tomatoes, lettuce, carrots, and just a bunch of fruits and veggies and then i got this fiber cereal like fiber one but like less than half the price. i am actually surprised it isn't so bad. 
Calorie Intake: (so far) fiber cereal : 45
                                        turkey bacon : 70 
                                        and COFFEE of course!!
I know it is a lot for breakfast but I have to work from 9 ish to 2:30. And i am on my feet doing stuff the whole time. I have to be positive and happy there so i can get good tips :-) but i never eat while i am there so thats good so i ma be able to skip out on lunch completely. i usually do for this shift.


I totally should be living in the 60s :-)

Stay Strong and Positive Girlies!!


Sunday, November 14, 2010

A Weekend of....

I am watching Grey Gardens. A film with Drew Barrymore about some of the kennedy sisters. I love Drew Barrymore. I know she isn't incredibly thin but I think she is just so incredible. She is inspiration where twiggy in thinspiration. we can have both.


So I am not going to go into the calories i have consumed so far this weekend. it would just take up time. so here is a smidget of my intakes and out takes:
Friday: I did pretty good really. oatmeal (which i didnt finish), soup (chicken broth and crackers just a few), and salad which i also didnt finish). My out take: ballet, and some stretching and other exercises.
Saturday: not as good. oatmeal, soup again, and then i had a few chocolates! ugh. then a small home-made grilled burger and some macaroni and cheese. oh and two small cookies! blah! Out take: only some walking around and some push-ups. how terrible.


Anyway.... i have been reading the blogs i follow but haven't had enough time to comment. i will as soon as i get enough time. i can't get on here when people are around...


you all need to watch this movie! it is so funny!


so for some reason yesterday i was hurting in my hip-sockets... it was so weird.
oh and i am not allowed to have a scale so i am not sure what i weigh at the moment... i can only weigh myself when i am at my parents house when they aren't and find a way to the scale. so i usually only get to weigh myself like once a week... my parents sent me to the hospital when i was 17 because they were "worried" about me. the doctors there diagnosed me with depression and bulimia. I stayed there for a week and i swear it was probably the weirdest week of my life. you wouldn't believe some of the girls that came through there...
about the diagnoses: at that point i had gotten so disappointed inmy eating habits i would just binge like crazy and throw it all up. i would put the weirdest things together and eat them. one of my most common binges was this: ice cream (any flavor...) marshmallows, peanut butter, chocolate chips, cookies, brownies, anything sweet i could get my hands on. and i would eat it as fast as i could so no one would know i ate it and then i would go up and purge it all! i got so good i could throw up and not make a sound.
as for the depression... my parents had noticed the cutting and found my diary. they sent me there and of course you can imagine those looks. it was like they were afraid of me. i had had a suicide attempt.
thats really in the past now though. its like a different life really. i hardly know that me.


now i am more of a happy with most things type of person. i try to be happy. i would describe myself as happy happy.


well that was surely a long essay. probably bored you all who read this.


stay with it! <3

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Today's Review

Calorie Intake: kind of bad today...

5 spoons of nonfat plain yogurt with some granola
salad: lettuce, tomato, havarti cheese (0.5 ounce), some sprays of dressing (the one cal per spray stuff)
some pretzel crackers and cream cheese
fiber one bar
apple
4 bites of chicken and 1/3 cup cooked rice.

Intake: 615

Calorie Expenditure: 250

Total : 365

I did not plan on having the chicken and rice but my inlaws kind of made me. I live with my inlaws btw... long story really but i am living with them while i am in school and then i live with my husband on the weekends until i finish school.
so today i walked instead of taking the bus from my car to campus - its about a mile and a quarter one way. So two and a half miles just for that. I also took the stairs: my classes today were on the 5th and 3rd floors. I was pretty proud of that. I was pretty out of breath going up 5 flights of stairs but i will get used to it.
also i had this thought today: maybe if i smile every time i get a hunger pang i will end up liking them after a while. if i think about it... each hunger pang is like a little bit of weight i am losing.
so i watched skins today... my favorite episode: cassie from season one. then i tried watching the finale of the first one. it really just depressed me for some reason. i am not sure why. so i have decided not to watch that for a while. i used to watch it in england when it was new and i loved it. so i am not sure why it affected me weird today.
well i have an early morning so i am going to bed soon.

Hope All Is well!     <3

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

My Ways to Skinny (56 ways and counting)

As the advertisement says: Every Little Helps.

 1- Are you hungry? Drink a large glass of water. Wait 5 minutes and then see if you are hungry.

2- Get your sleep. You aren't eating when you sleep. Also if you get more sleep you will be less hungry during the day.

3- Every 27 steps burns one calorie (at a moderate pace)

4- Eat negative calorie foods. (Vegetables)

5- Eating a salad at the end of a meal will actually help you flush more of the calories and stuff out. But eating a salad first might fill you up faster. My thoughts: if you are going to eat a meal eat a salad after. If you are going to eat a salad don't eat a meal after it. Just eat lots of greens.

6- Do not eat in front of the tv

7- Eat on light colored plates. You will see the food better and maybe not eat as much.

8- Always leave some food on the plate. You may need to start small. Start by just leaving one bite on the plate. Then two and so on. Eventually you will think you have to leave food on the plate and eat less.

9- Become a vegetarian. Not a vegetarian who eats chicken and fish. But a hard core vegetarian. No meat, no fish, no eggs, no gelatin, nothing made from an animal. I would keep milk and cheese in there because I like cheese and ice cream. I tried being a vegan but I ended up almost fainting every time I walked up the stairs so I had to add those things back in.

10- Need a distraction? Watch your favorite tv show. Or watch a tv show or movie with some type of eating disorder inspiration in it. Trainspotting, Skins, Ally McBeal show (Once she got uber skinny), Friends (check out Monica and Rachel's arms in the later seasons!), The OC, Gossip Girl, Desperate Housewives, 30 Rock (some episodes, well at least may gross you out), there is a pbs e.d. mini documentary look up thinking thin or something like that.... you get the idea

11- go through inspirational websites

12- Drink tea. If it is at night, drink Sleepytime tea.

13- Drink your coffee black. no sugar, no creamer, no sweeteners.

14- Get a dog. You will HAVE to take him/her on walks. At meal times feed the dog. Sometimes it feels good to feed others and not yourself. Your dog will not be suspicious

15- Count to 100 slowly if you are hungry. Maybe the counting will take your mind off food or maybe you will think of some reasons not to eat.

16- Ginger speeds up the metabolism. So do spicy foods.

17- Cinnamon might curb your hunger.

18- Breakfast: 1/4 or 1/3 cup of quick or whole oats, 1 tsp or less of cinnamon. No sugar. If you can't do this, try 1 tbsp brown sugar or less. Edit: a tbsp of brown sugar has 52 calories according to the US Department of Agriculture National Nutrient Database. (http://www.livestrong.com/article/306026-the-calories-in-one-tablespoon-of-brown-sugar/)

19- Lunch: salad: no dressing. only veggies or fruits.

20- Dinner: can you skip it? "I ate dinner out" "I picked up fast food on the way home" "I ate at school" "I will grab something later" There are plenty of excuses. If you think its true so will others.

21- Make small goals for yourself. You will be more likely to stay motivated if you reach your goals. 

22- I think about all of the people around me who are skinnier and think that should be me

23- Take a shower or a bath


24- Take a diuretic or laxative. I like the chocolate flavored ones. Do not go over board with these. I used to take these like vitamins and screwed up my "schedule" for a while. Only take them sparingly.


25- After dieting and exercising a lot you may lose you period. This is not good for your health. You will lose bone density and be at risk for osteoporosis later on. I lost mine at about 112 pounds and exercising for at least 2 hours a day.


26- Make a last eat time.... I like to go by this rule: If you don't eat after 7pm then don't eat before 7am. That is a whole 12 hours without eating. You could make it longer but I like using the same numbers.


27- Espresso. I am a coffee person usually but I recently found that espresso makes me so hyper. And by hyper, I mean I get so much done and I am extra active which means more calories burnt.


28 - Park your car farther away.


29 - Take the stairs. Or even go up some extra floors and then come back down. If you are weak I would not suggest this because you will end up looking pretty worn out by the time you get to where you are going.


30 - Go on a fast. No food, no thick juices. I usually allow one 8 oz juice per day and make sure it is cranberry (not juice cocktail). The first day is easy. The second day is harder and the third day is hardest. After 3 days it gets pretty easy. You may be weaker than usual though. I would not suggest going for too long because your body will go into starvation mode but a short fast usually helps me get back on track.


31 - Schedule things during meal times to keep your self away from food at those times. 


32- Know your BMI. http://www.nhlbisupport.com/bmi/bmicalc.htm This site works great and will calculate in metric or inches/feet. Mine is 19.8. Underweight is 18.5 and below. Over weight is 25 and above.


33 - Get a tape measure. This way you can monitor where you are losing or gaining weight. The places I like to measure and monitor: waist, thighs, calves, bust, butt. I seem to lose weight last from my legs :-( At 107 my thighs were still huge. At 107, My BMI was 17.8.


34 - Feeling fat? Stop thinking about it and go to the gym. If you can't get to the gym there are plenty of ways to work out: get a hula hoop, try ankle weights or wrist weights. Wear the weights whenever you can to boost your calories burned. Do sit ups, crunches, push ups, pull ups anything. Pull-ups actually work a ton of muscles: from your arms to your back. I can do one pull up. You have to start somewhere. 


35 - playing cards? Ask to be the dealer/shuffler, you will have to do more work. Same with any board game: be the banker... you can squeeze in little things everywhere and it all adds up


36 - Fidget. Just fidgeting can add up to 800 calories a day to your expenditure. When calculating my total calorie intake for the day I do not add this in. I like to know that I ate less but still tell myself it's not good enough.


37 - Get a buddy to diet with. You will do better. But make sure you have the same/similar goals. If the other person is not prepared to go as far as you, they will discourage you when you get "too" thin.


38 - Wash the dishes by hand and scrub hard. This will work out your arms.


39 - When grocery shopping take the basket instead of a cart: you will burn more calories and not be able to buy as much food.


40 - Have a rule about over eating: If you over eat you must burn that many calories or more.


41 - Hate running or going to the gym? Get an itouch and watch movies or tv shows on it while you workout. You will work out for longer. Or grab a good book and get on the bicycle. One time I was reading such a good book that I ended up biking for 2 hours! 


42 - Like shopping? Walking in the mall will help burn calories and you will be looking at skinny clothes and mannequins. Inspiration right there as you exercise. 


43 - Do a certain amount of leg lifts every morning or night: I like to do at least 50 per leg.


44 - Watch something happy and exciting! Your favorite show or movie.


45 - Take a nap


46 - Do not drink diet sodas: they will make you want to eat and make you want more sugar.


47 - If you do want a soda: share one with someone. I usually just take sips off someone else's soda to satisfy my craving.


48 - Read a magazine: I like Harper's Bazaar and Real Simple. I love fashion and being organized.


49 - Eat fiberous foods. They will help you well you know. And also they burn calories when you digest them. I think I read somewhere that each gram of fiber burns 7 calories to digest.


50 - Cook for others. If you are hosting a party or dinner you will probably be caught up in cooking that you may not sit down for the meal. Tell them you ate while you were cooking. But be careful, if you do eat while you cook try to keep track of it.


51 - Take a "long cut."


52 - Squats or "plies." With feet turned out in first, second and fifth positions do some squats. These will work your thighs in and out. and give you better balance. they will also work out your butt.


53 - Procrastinate


54 - A food diary. Write down everything you eat after you eat it. This will keep you on track.


55 - Buy your clothes too small. you will have to lose weight to fit in them so you dont waste money


56 - keep some good white lies in your pocket (not literally). just know things to say when someone asks you if you ate, are going to eat, or why you arent eating





I will Keep adding to this.... If you would like to add something... Just make a comment and I will add it in or respond to it