Friday, December 9, 2011
Ok ladies I am back and I need your help!!
I am up to 122.4! It is awful. I got all the way up to 125! I cant stand wearing clothes and I avoid going out because I am so disgusting now! If I do go out... I wear anything that makes me look skinnier than I am. My jeans miss me and it is getting cold now so i miss them too.
I told myself once I got at least down to 120 I would come on here but I cant get there.... I have been trying for the past 3 weeks and I have only gotten as far as 122.4! I really need your help and motivation to get down to 115 or less by February.... when my hubby finally comes home!
I just got a box from him and he had bought me this gorgeous top from TopShop and he bought a size 6 (which is a US size 2) and it fits but then he also sent me 3 Vogue magazines: Spain, Russia and Paris! And I just felt like such a disappointment. he remembers me as this super fashionable skinny wife and here i am not even close....
So then I decided to look at old photos of me and it helped me to realize how much i need to get back to where I was. stop gorging myself with food and really focus. the one thing I cannot do is purge. My teeth lost a bunch of enamel and you can definitely tell if you look at them... its not good. I am whitening them and they are looking better. but i cannot make them worse!
So I need to LOSE AT LEAST 7.4 POUNDS!! By february.
Dye my hair tomorrow! I am dying it like a chocolate brown color and am super excited! It will be like giving me a fresh start.
I work today from 12-6 So I cannot eat during that time.
I gave up coffee like almost 2 weeks ago now. I am drinking tea instead... I don't really know if it is better... but it doesn't give me bad coffee breath or anything.
NEW RULES: I will add a rule on top of this every week until I get to my goal.
No eating after 8pm and before 8am.
Must exercise the amount of calories I eat or more.
Must go to the gym at least 3 times a week.
Must read vogue everyday or some fashion magazine (online or off line)
Read at least 5 blogs everyday :-) I will probs read more to keep busy and distracted.
I love you all!!!! Please comment and put your blog thing so I can follow if I don't already! I need you all to help me keep busy!!!!