Thursday, April 5, 2012

have a good holiday weekend girlies!!

i wont be able to post probably over the weekend.

did not sleep well last night. no idea why. kept waking up. weird dreams again. all i remember is running and falling and hiding in the bushes. with that kid shia lebeouf chasing me on a bike. 

listening to: devil makes three :-) 
like in love with them lately... check out: Aces and Twos or Do Wrong Right... they are all good though. awesome tattoos too :-)

ok well i am so tired but got to get this day started! 
todays planned intake: diet cherry pepsi and then dinner with chicken
hopefully i will stay under 500 today. hubby has gone crazy food nut on me so i dont think it should be too much of an issue. he is doing that p90x thing. 
love you all!!

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

just a quickie

today has been crazy busy and i am exhausted!!
so happy i dont have classes tomorrow! just got to pack up the last few things at the apartment and then clean up some and then i am off to see the hubby in our brand new house!! we bought a house!! it is just amazing :-) i love it!

food issues today: ate a god damn muffin. awful. 400 calories!!
lunch was a fiber one bar and a couple slices of deli chicken - 200
and then dinner was a tuna sandwich and small salad - 300
then i had a tiny bowl of ice cream! awful! 120
so i went just over 1000.... could have done better.
we had a field trip in my one class today though and we stopped at krispy kreme. no doughnuts for me thank you very much!! the only good food choice all day probably.

anyways... exercised a bunch. about 500 calories. i guess it isnt my usual but its better than lately.

well i am going to go to bed here soon and then wake up and get this stuff done tomorrow and head out to the house! it is like only 15 minutes from the beach! :-) 

ok girls! talk soon!!!


Tuesday, April 3, 2012


does anyone else feel drunk from not eating? i felt in a weird daze like drunk almost most of the day. sort of nice. but odd. surreal actually.

while i was away i got another tattoo! it is beautiful! its a salvador dali elephant on my right shoulder/back area. about the size of my hand if i spread all my fingers out. maybe a little bigger. it is amazing. they are addicting though!! 
hubby has two half sleeves now in addition to the others. 
ok going to sleep now! i will try to comment tomorrow!
love you all!!!
p.s.- for some reason i cant access the little thing where i record my weight... ill figure it out later

A beautiful tuesday!

hey ladies!!

how long has it been? are you all still here?
how do i have 101 followers even though i have neglected this blog so badly?

weight issues suck. i am no longer an inspiration for anyone.
117 for my hubby's homecoming. that was pretty good.
then of course it was seeing friends and family and celebrating and the whole nine yards and i just ate like mother fucker. great times though. so happy to have my hubby home!!
i swear he has developped an eating disorder too over this last year...
anyways we have a sort of bet going on right now... who can have the hottest beach bod by july 1st!
so i am trying to be awesome and do well this time. by well i mean get back to at least 115. i was 122.4 on sunday. the hubby is restricting my scale use again... only once a week. he tried to keep it to once a month! i think i would go crazy.
today's damage...
cereal and skim milk: 165
half a sandwich and 3 cheese curls: 160

I did a work out before lunch so that was maybe -200?

i am proud of myself though. i made a whole sandwich and small bowl of the cheese curls (to test my will power...) and i ate half the sandwich and only 3 cheese curls! it is like a huge feat these days!!

to skinnyness!!!!