Please don't tempt me...

Thank you girlies for your wonderful and encouraging comments!! It really means so much to me! :-)

The nail polishing went wonderfully! I painted mine this very dark purple almost black but not black. and my friend painted this adorable flower on my thumb :-) oh and my toes are all glittery!!

the tofu and veggie stir fry was too good. i just wanted to eat and eat and eat. i kept myself just eating the tofu and veggies and left most of the rice noodles. i made sure not to serve myself too much. i hope it wasn't too much... i felt like i was eating a feast. then we had some jello shots and i got dragged to this new fro-yo place. i had to get a little bit of something to keep from being questioned. i got the tiniest bit of fat-free coconut with a couple gummy bears. i had like maybe 2 or 3 bites. 

i am somehow feeling so huge right now. i hate eating in front of everyone and feeling like i have to eat a "normal" amount. just eating "normal" food makes me feel icky sometimes. tomorrow will be better. and saturday and monday will be drinking days. i like to eat very little on those days so it doesn't take much at all to get drunk. less calories and more drunkenness :-) 

ok well good night girlies!! 

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Voila C'est moi!

Just thought I would post my progress...

ednos Linny : I am 5'5'' Oh how i would love to be taller... the rest of my family is at least 5'7'' so I guess I got the short end of that stick... oh well

Look at that food baby... I took these right after breakfast

I think this is my favorite. You can see my ribs and I wasn't even sucking in.

My ass is still HUGE

Thank you all for the lovely comments!

What lovely progress :-) 116.6

So YES I am 116.6 now!!!! I am so happy! I really am moving forward! Only 1.6 pounds from my next goal!


Tonight i am having a nail polish party and making tofu and veggie stir fry :-) I am not really a vegetarian I just don't eat a lot of meat. I was vegetarian for about 3 and a half years and then vegan for six months in there. Somedays I think about going back to that... I don't think my husband would be too happy though. So I will just stick to only eating meat when necessary really... 
one of my friends coming over tonight is just like me almost vegetarian. :-) and she even doesn't eat eggs. (oh when i was vegetarian.. i didn't eat type of meat or meat broth, no gelatin, no eggs so when i became vegan all i had left to give up was cheese and dairy). I have a feeling i will be back to that soon... just an inkling


Two more followers last night! Thank you girls! :-) Comment and leave me your urls so i can follow too! 
Sorry I did not post anymore thinspo last night. i was just feeling to weak to really concentrate on anything. I may not have a chance tonight either... i get off work again at 2:30 and then i have to go buy more veggies for the stir fry and then people start coming over at 6 or 6:30ish. Every wednesday is nail polish party at my place. it is too expensive to keep my nails up at the salon so my friends come over and bring all of their nail polish and we paint our nails every week. 

Measurements: in inches
Bust: 31.5
Waist: 23.5
Hips: 31
Ass: 34
Upper arm: 9
Wrist: 5.5
Thigh: 19




Stay Positive and Put a Smile On :-D


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GYM! HERE I COME!

I have not been to the actual gym in like 2 whole months! I know! Fat ASS! 
I am about to walk out the door :-)
unfortunately i caved and had a big veggie salad... no dressing though. 
anyways I am off to burn a bajillion calories! 


I will read blogs and post more thinspo and such tonight!


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Back from the gym :-) I biked at a good pace on one of those machines for an hour and 30 minutes! When i got up to stretch my legs felt like jelly haha walking home i probably looked like a bafoon... oh well. i am happy with how long i worked out! 
i can't believe i have gained 6 followers since i got back on here sunday night! I love you all! you make me feel heard :-)
it is seven o clock and i am now trying to procrastinate and avoid eating dinner... i think i will have some chicken broth later though. 

later.... ok so i am feeling incredibly weak right now :-( it's good and then not good. so i am about to get a glass of water, maybe some tea and curl up on the couch and watch desperate housewives :-) i skipped out on the broth because i am too tired to heat it up haha i almost caved and had some peanut butter and then gave it to my dog instead. he loved it. for some reason i am really craving starbursts!! my mouth is watering thinking about them. is that so weird?

Still 118? Really?

Yesterday I was negative calories and somehow I have only stayed the same weight. i hate it when that happens! I must have drunk too  much water or consumed too much salt? I hardly ate so I am not sure about the salt. But I kept getting hunger pangs so I kept drinking water. Anyway I kept repeatedly getting on the scale. Like 7 times in a row and 118 every time. ugh i hate that scale... so today i have to be more extreme i suppose. yesterday i went to my favorite grocery store: aldi. they always have tons of fresh produce and it is always cheap! i got tomatoes, lettuce, carrots, and just a bunch of fruits and veggies and then i got this fiber cereal like fiber one but like less than half the price. i am actually surprised it isn't so bad. 

Calorie Intake: (so far) fiber cereal : 45

                                        turkey bacon : 70 

                                        and COFFEE of course!!

I know it is a lot for breakfast but I have to work from 9 ish to 2:30. And i am on my feet doing stuff the whole time. I have to be positive and happy there so i can get good tips :-) but i never eat while i am there so thats good so i ma be able to skip out on lunch completely. i usually do for this shift.

I totally should be living in the 60s :-)

Stay Strong and Positive Girlies!!