Still 118? Really?

Yesterday I was negative calories and somehow I have only stayed the same weight. i hate it when that happens! I must have drunk too  much water or consumed too much salt? I hardly ate so I am not sure about the salt. But I kept getting hunger pangs so I kept drinking water. Anyway I kept repeatedly getting on the scale. Like 7 times in a row and 118 every time. ugh i hate that scale... so today i have to be more extreme i suppose. yesterday i went to my favorite grocery store: aldi. they always have tons of fresh produce and it is always cheap! i got tomatoes, lettuce, carrots, and just a bunch of fruits and veggies and then i got this fiber cereal like fiber one but like less than half the price. i am actually surprised it isn't so bad. 

Calorie Intake: (so far) fiber cereal : 45

                                        turkey bacon : 70 

                                        and COFFEE of course!!

I know it is a lot for breakfast but I have to work from 9 ish to 2:30. And i am on my feet doing stuff the whole time. I have to be positive and happy there so i can get good tips :-) but i never eat while i am there so thats good so i ma be able to skip out on lunch completely. i usually do for this shift.

I totally should be living in the 60s :-)

Stay Strong and Positive Girlies!!

Mornings Mornings

I love it when I start my day off right :-) 
I am down to 118 today. That's 0.6 of a pound down since yesterday and 3 pounds down since Wednesday when I started weighing in again. I know it's a lot to lose in less than a week but I think when you start losing or start losing again you always get this nice big break. Then when I hit 115 again I will be stuck for a while but I am starting off better. Last time I started at 125. 


FOOD ick
breakfast: watery smoothie: 45
                  special k and like a tbsp light plain soy milk : 100
                  and COFFEE!!
lunch:       salad no dressing : 25
                 caprese salad i made : 70 (one tomato with some fresh mozzarella and italian herbs)
dinner: tbd


So i stayed up last night till like 1 or 2 am. thats pretty late for me haha. i was just doodling for my tattoo and looking at people's blogs and finding thinspo. And then somehow I just woke up this morning at 7am. And I am like not even tired. I am actually pretty full of energy... :-) 


Today's agenda:

• go to doctor at 9:45 (nothing too special... last time i went my blood sugar was super low so she wanted to check it again. well i hadn't eaten that day so of course it was low. let's hope it is a little better this time.)
• find a cute little storage thing for my bathroom.... i have way to many things just crammed under the sink
• line the drawers of my desk with this super cute flowery wall paper i found :-)
• eat very little
• online shop at forever 21

I will be looking for more thinspo shortly to add to my thinspo page.

and i will be reading blogs!

MY TATTOO:

it is going to go on my right back and shoulder so like it starts on the shoulder blade and wraps around the top of my arm and chest :-) i have pictures on one of these pages ^^ of my doodles so far

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Wow It HAs Been Forever!! I am BACK!

my incredibly awful weight gained up to: 118.6


i need to get back on track and get back to where i was when i left... 115. and then i would love to get to 111. i love that number. and 105 would be smashing.


i am working on my tattoo design now so of course i went and found some tattoo thins! check it out on one of my pages ^^ 
it's going to be flowers done in an alice in wonderland original style illustrations and i might throw a mushroom in there. :-D


missed you girlies!!


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A swan of swans

So today was alright. For some reason my stomach has been getting very full very fast. it's good for weight loss :-) for lunch i attempted to eat some chicken, just grilled chicken and i could only manage like 4 or 5 bites. after that i was so incredibly full! good stuff


so i saw black swan today!!! finally :-) i absolutely loved it! i saw it at the dollar theater and can't wait to buy it and watch it over and over! 

SHE IS GORGEOUS!!! Skinny and not super skinny. She is just brilliant! Watch leon the professional if you haven't yet!

Much love!

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Wow Its been like 3 months!

Ok so things have been crazy for the past few months. my husband has deployed recently and so i have gotten a little off track. i have still been running a lot... i now run between 2 and 5 miles every other day ish. sometimes when the weather is just beautiful i don't want to stop and just keep going haha. i wonder if any of the people I used to follow are still around...?
on the scale... I am 117. ugh. so like 3 pounds up from my last entry i think. i have been horrible with food lately. i don't eat a lot but i eat awful foods. like chinese last week. and a burger on yesterday (i only ate half but still). i dont always eat dinner but then i will have chocolate before i go to bed. it has just been a mess really.
i need to get back with it. i should be on here every day i think. so please help me keep on track.

just a little happy note: somehow i have managed to keep the space between my thighs :-) i want to make it bigger though like how it was a few months ago. i think i was down to like 111 around christmas...

been watching antm :-) i wish i was tall enough... only 5'5''

think thin thoughts!!
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A Wednesday for Wednesdays

So the wedding was of course amazing and I was at 114 for it. Maybe less since I didn't hardly at all for the two days before and during but I also didn't have access to a scale. 114 was the last weight i had seen on the scale. 
I am 116 now which isn't the worst like I said but I know I need to get to at 112. 


So as for the measurements I have : 

November 26th :                           January 12th : 

waist : 24 inches                          Waist : 23.5 

bust : 32                                       Bust : 31.5

hips : 32                                       Hips : 31

butt : 35.5                                    Butt : 34.5

thigh : 19.25                                 Thigh : 18.5 

wrist : 5.5                                     Wrist : 5.5

bicep : 8.5                                    Bicep : 8.5

Weight : 117 .5                                Weight : 116

With only a pound and a half down since Nov. 26th that is terrible! Argh!

I have lost inches though and the space between my legs is great!! I put my knees together feet forward and no part of my thigh touches the other one! That was one of my major goals the first time around. I do not know how it didn't happen or I was too busy counting calories and all that I forgot to actually look at myself in the mirrir for progress. I was mainly worried about the scale by the time I got to 115 and then after that until 107.

Oh and I went to the gym for an hour and 30 minutes today :-)

Anyways, I want to put up pictures but I am afraid they will show up on like google or something and someone will see it. We'll see.

I hope you all are great! I am going to comment you now!

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Thinspo :-)

I am so inspired by skinny girls in thigh highs!

Nadine Coyle from Girls Aloud 

Stay thinking thin through these tough holiday times!

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How are my ladies?

So I had thought about becoming vegetarian again. That is pretty difficult because if the house I live in currently.
So here is what I am doing instead : the ABC (Ana Boot Camp) diet. I got this idea from Ammie. Check out her blog. She has come soooo far!! Pretty amazing! I think you can click on her name and it should go there...? let me know if it works.
It is a random assortment of calorie intakes for 50 days (0 to 500).
I will put up the calorie intakes by week or something like that. I have also made a page with the whole plan on it.


I have already done days 1 and 2 which are 500 or less each.
Day 3 : 300 total (this is tomorrow)
           : 70 calorie yogurt (no cereal this time)
           : apple and slice of 35 calorie toast : 85
           : a few bites of chicken, salad, and maybe melba toast : 50 + 50
           : and that leaves me 45 calories extra


Day 4 : 400
Day 5 : 100
Day 6 : 200
Day 7 : 400
Day 8 : 300
Day 9 : 500
Day 10 : Fast


I am hoping this goes well. It has to. I need more structure other than just thinking in the back of my head how many calories i have eaten so far. Now i will think : if i eat this i will have this many left.... 


I am going to quickly find some thinspo and get that up then go to sleep.
I have my last exam tomorrow :-)


Think so so so thin!!!


oh and here is a review of the abc plan i found on a website : http://dietchoices.com/diet-plans/ana-boot-camp-abc-diet/

Sally reviewed June 20, 2009

I did this diet about 9 months ago and i lost 20kg on it, lead me to hospitalisation but it was the best 50 days of my whole entire life. i highly recommend it, its great i then later a futher 10kg and was re hospitalised down to 39kg i think, i am now in recovery for anorexia, but dam it was worth it... skinny is priceless. the feeling the look everything about what i went through was priceless, the most valuable time i have had in my life say what you will think what you will abc diet is gold. love. xioxo

Much Needed Thinspo .....

I want to be able to wear thigh highs :-)

Some great thinspo for the start of a lovely new diet plan :-)

Thank you all for your lovely comments!!

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Thinspo on a Friday!

I liked my idea of themed thinspo... I will do that next time. I just had this left over from another day. So here it goes... Enjoy!!

As they say, great things come in small packages :-)

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