Dream Horrors

First things first:


Calorie intake:: 425
Calorie out take:: 652


Total :: -227


So i always have crazy dreams... my craziest have been: 


screaming in my sleep and running for the door while thinking there are bugs in my hair and trying to get them out. i had to be tackled to wake me up.


waking up and jumping out of bed because i was sure someone was standing in my doorway


jumping out of bed because i thought the apartment was full of smoke like it was on fire


and last night was this: i woke up in the middle of the night sure that someone had just knocked on my bedroom window. 


i really don't know why i get these dreams... oh and another one a while back was i dreamed that the skin on my foot was falling off and i was trying to hold it on.


i am hoping tonight is much better! 


sweet dreams everyone!!


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Mornings Mornings

I love it when I start my day off right :-) 
I am down to 118 today. That's 0.6 of a pound down since yesterday and 3 pounds down since Wednesday when I started weighing in again. I know it's a lot to lose in less than a week but I think when you start losing or start losing again you always get this nice big break. Then when I hit 115 again I will be stuck for a while but I am starting off better. Last time I started at 125. 


FOOD ick
breakfast: watery smoothie: 45
                  special k and like a tbsp light plain soy milk : 100
                  and COFFEE!!
lunch:       salad no dressing : 25
                 caprese salad i made : 70 (one tomato with some fresh mozzarella and italian herbs)
dinner: tbd


So i stayed up last night till like 1 or 2 am. thats pretty late for me haha. i was just doodling for my tattoo and looking at people's blogs and finding thinspo. And then somehow I just woke up this morning at 7am. And I am like not even tired. I am actually pretty full of energy... :-) 


Today's agenda:

• go to doctor at 9:45 (nothing too special... last time i went my blood sugar was super low so she wanted to check it again. well i hadn't eaten that day so of course it was low. let's hope it is a little better this time.)
• find a cute little storage thing for my bathroom.... i have way to many things just crammed under the sink
• line the drawers of my desk with this super cute flowery wall paper i found :-)
• eat very little
• online shop at forever 21

I will be looking for more thinspo shortly to add to my thinspo page.

and i will be reading blogs!

MY TATTOO:

it is going to go on my right back and shoulder so like it starts on the shoulder blade and wraps around the top of my arm and chest :-) i have pictures on one of these pages ^^ of my doodles so far

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Wow It HAs Been Forever!! I am BACK!

my incredibly awful weight gained up to: 118.6


i need to get back on track and get back to where i was when i left... 115. and then i would love to get to 111. i love that number. and 105 would be smashing.


i am working on my tattoo design now so of course i went and found some tattoo thins! check it out on one of my pages ^^ 
it's going to be flowers done in an alice in wonderland original style illustrations and i might throw a mushroom in there. :-D


missed you girlies!!


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A swan of swans

So today was alright. For some reason my stomach has been getting very full very fast. it's good for weight loss :-) for lunch i attempted to eat some chicken, just grilled chicken and i could only manage like 4 or 5 bites. after that i was so incredibly full! good stuff


so i saw black swan today!!! finally :-) i absolutely loved it! i saw it at the dollar theater and can't wait to buy it and watch it over and over! 

SHE IS GORGEOUS!!! Skinny and not super skinny. She is just brilliant! Watch leon the professional if you haven't yet!

Much love!

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Wow Its been like 3 months!

Ok so things have been crazy for the past few months. my husband has deployed recently and so i have gotten a little off track. i have still been running a lot... i now run between 2 and 5 miles every other day ish. sometimes when the weather is just beautiful i don't want to stop and just keep going haha. i wonder if any of the people I used to follow are still around...?
on the scale... I am 117. ugh. so like 3 pounds up from my last entry i think. i have been horrible with food lately. i don't eat a lot but i eat awful foods. like chinese last week. and a burger on yesterday (i only ate half but still). i dont always eat dinner but then i will have chocolate before i go to bed. it has just been a mess really.
i need to get back with it. i should be on here every day i think. so please help me keep on track.

just a little happy note: somehow i have managed to keep the space between my thighs :-) i want to make it bigger though like how it was a few months ago. i think i was down to like 111 around christmas...

been watching antm :-) i wish i was tall enough... only 5'5''

think thin thoughts!!
love <3