A swan of swans

So today was alright. For some reason my stomach has been getting very full very fast. it's good for weight loss :-) for lunch i attempted to eat some chicken, just grilled chicken and i could only manage like 4 or 5 bites. after that i was so incredibly full! good stuff


so i saw black swan today!!! finally :-) i absolutely loved it! i saw it at the dollar theater and can't wait to buy it and watch it over and over! 

SHE IS GORGEOUS!!! Skinny and not super skinny. She is just brilliant! Watch leon the professional if you haven't yet!

Much love!

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A Wednesday for Wednesdays

So the wedding was of course amazing and I was at 114 for it. Maybe less since I didn't hardly at all for the two days before and during but I also didn't have access to a scale. 114 was the last weight i had seen on the scale. 
I am 116 now which isn't the worst like I said but I know I need to get to at 112. 


So as for the measurements I have : 

November 26th :                           January 12th : 

waist : 24 inches                          Waist : 23.5 

bust : 32                                       Bust : 31.5

hips : 32                                       Hips : 31

butt : 35.5                                    Butt : 34.5

thigh : 19.25                                 Thigh : 18.5 

wrist : 5.5                                     Wrist : 5.5

bicep : 8.5                                    Bicep : 8.5

Weight : 117 .5                                Weight : 116

With only a pound and a half down since Nov. 26th that is terrible! Argh!

I have lost inches though and the space between my legs is great!! I put my knees together feet forward and no part of my thigh touches the other one! That was one of my major goals the first time around. I do not know how it didn't happen or I was too busy counting calories and all that I forgot to actually look at myself in the mirrir for progress. I was mainly worried about the scale by the time I got to 115 and then after that until 107.

Oh and I went to the gym for an hour and 30 minutes today :-)

Anyways, I want to put up pictures but I am afraid they will show up on like google or something and someone will see it. We'll see.

I hope you all are great! I am going to comment you now!

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I am done with exams!! ABC update

So I am done with exams and I am so relieved. Here is my progress so far in day 3 of the abc.


Day 3 : 300 total

           : 70 calorie yogurt (no cereal this time)
           : apple and slice of 35 calorie toast : 85 
           : chicken and lettuce 50
           : melba toast 50
           : 0.5 ounce cheese 25
           :TOTAL : 280 :-) 


Somehow I wasn't even that tired or hungry!! I hope tomorrow goes well. the first day is always the easiest. I will comment on all of your posts now!!
I am not counting exercise... Thats not part of the plan. But i still am exercising just less.
And I am happy to have 13 followers now! Thank you all!


Tomorrow : 


Day 4 : 400 calorie total.
           : 70 cal yogurt again
           : apple, clementine, slice of toast : 110
           : i am not sure i will eat dinner because i am working :-)
           : i will pack 3 thin slices of low fat ham from the deli and melba toast : 78
           : thats all i can think of for now


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How are my ladies?

So I had thought about becoming vegetarian again. That is pretty difficult because if the house I live in currently.
So here is what I am doing instead : the ABC (Ana Boot Camp) diet. I got this idea from Ammie. Check out her blog. She has come soooo far!! Pretty amazing! I think you can click on her name and it should go there...? let me know if it works.
It is a random assortment of calorie intakes for 50 days (0 to 500).
I will put up the calorie intakes by week or something like that. I have also made a page with the whole plan on it.


I have already done days 1 and 2 which are 500 or less each.
Day 3 : 300 total (this is tomorrow)
           : 70 calorie yogurt (no cereal this time)
           : apple and slice of 35 calorie toast : 85
           : a few bites of chicken, salad, and maybe melba toast : 50 + 50
           : and that leaves me 45 calories extra


Day 4 : 400
Day 5 : 100
Day 6 : 200
Day 7 : 400
Day 8 : 300
Day 9 : 500
Day 10 : Fast


I am hoping this goes well. It has to. I need more structure other than just thinking in the back of my head how many calories i have eaten so far. Now i will think : if i eat this i will have this many left.... 


I am going to quickly find some thinspo and get that up then go to sleep.
I have my last exam tomorrow :-)


Think so so so thin!!!


oh and here is a review of the abc plan i found on a website : http://dietchoices.com/diet-plans/ana-boot-camp-abc-diet/

Sally reviewed June 20, 2009

I did this diet about 9 months ago and i lost 20kg on it, lead me to hospitalisation but it was the best 50 days of my whole entire life. i highly recommend it, its great i then later a futher 10kg and was re hospitalised down to 39kg i think, i am now in recovery for anorexia, but dam it was worth it... skinny is priceless. the feeling the look everything about what i went through was priceless, the most valuable time i have had in my life say what you will think what you will abc diet is gold. love. xioxo

Thinspo on a Friday!

I liked my idea of themed thinspo... I will do that next time. I just had this left over from another day. So here it goes... Enjoy!!

As they say, great things come in small packages :-)

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New Stats and Measurements

My new stats : 
CW : 115.4 :-) Its down 1.2 from yesterday! crazy! but i sure do love it!! :-)
Since I have been on here, I have lost 4.6 pounds. In the last week I have lost : 2.8 pounds.


Intake : 331
Out Take : 614
Total : -283
I finally kept my intake below 500 and even below 400 yey!!


These are compared to my stats on November 15th.


waist : 23.5 (down half an inch)
bust : 32.5 (up half an inch which is weird)
hips : 31.5 (down a whole inch!)
butt : 34.5 (wow down an inch and a half!!)
thigh : 18.5 (also down an inch!)
wrist : 5.5 (same)
bicep : 9 (weird it went up half an inch)


I like that hips, butt and thighs have lost the most! They are my worst areas as i am sure you can all see. I don't care if my boobs get bigger. Thats fine with me and i am sure my other half is good with it ;-)


Anyway, it is exactly 8 days until the wedding! I would really love to be 111 or 112... We will see what happens. Thats like 3 or 4 pounds in one week. I know it is do able but I don't know if it will happen. I will be hopeful though :-)


Love all of your comments!!
Think Thin
Thinspo coming up!
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Thinspo With Some Tattoos :-)

The Tatted up girls are towards the end :-)

I think this is gorgeous!! ^^

Not a real tattoo but it would be sooo cool! ^^

Think Thin Girlies!!

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Monday of Mondays

I resisted eating a lovely lindor chocolate ball last night! I was so proud because usually i eat one chocolate every night and it is the first time in quite sometime i made it without one. sort of a ritual so i am glad i broke it.


Intake : 501
Out Take : 696


Total : -195!


I have fallen into my old ways and i am good with that. I start by exercising like crazy. I just go and go and go and go... Today: I ran 5 miles today. Then I did an at home workout : leg lifts, crunches and such, and then I stretched for like 30 or so minutes. Then I went shopping for my wedding band. I swear I walked and walked for so long. I finally came across the perfect one and I can't wait for it to arrive :-) Oh and I am about to burn another 100 or so calories jogging in place. It will probably end up more like 150 or 200.


I know I eat a lot but I try to make up for it. I started this way last time and after about 2 or so weeks I started eating more like 200 calories and then none. I will be skinny soon.


I love you all! I won't write much more but I will post more thinspo! 


Think Thin Girlies!!


Oh and I CANNOT WAIT TO SEE BLACK SWAN!! It's coming to the indie theater near me and I am so excited!!!!


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Super Motivated Sunday!!

So get this... I sort of ate a lot but I worked out so hard. 
Intake: 875 (I went to Jersey Mike's with my father in-law and so had to get a small sub. sort of ruined my intake but oh well. )


Out Take: 1110!! Can you believe it? I took the dog for a loooong run like 5 or 6 miles and then I went and worked out at the gym later! I am not sure what even got me so motivated but I didn't want to stop. I had to stop when the gym closed. Have I totally lost it? I think maybe I was so mad that I ate so much that I just had to keep burning more and more calories! 


Total : -235!


Today's weight : 118 which is 0.2 less than yesterday. I know it's huge. It will be less soon. I just have to keep working out and eat less. Let's hope tomorrow's is less :-)


Oh and I finally found the charger for my camera so maybe I will put up some pictures.... 


I hope everyone is doing great!!


I am going to post some thinspo now! I will have fun finding some awesome pictures!


I love all of your comments :-) Thank you!


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Good Morning!

Today when I woke up I was ready to go. I laid in bed for a couple minutes with the dog and then got up. I was disappointed when I got on the scale... I think running yesterday was not the best for weight loss. I am sure it is good but instead of making me lose I think it made me gain.


I am in a good mood though! I am ready to stay focused and lose lose lose. 


Breakfast : low sugar oatmeal : 120
Lunch :
DInner : 
Out take :
Total :


I will take the dog for a run or walk again today. I think if I just keep running that eventually, hopefully soon, I will lose again. Just build up the muscles first I guess.


I will be posting thinspo hopefully today. It is my bridal shower but I should have some time.


Stay Strong and Think Thin Ladies!!


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This was me at 110. Its a little hard to see but the collar bones are definitely there.

A Bright Side of Thursday

Well yesterday I applied for a job and today I am supposed to call K to follow up. The place opens at 10 so I am thinking I should call at 10:30? I mean she has to have some time... I don't want to be annoying. I am excited though! I miss having a job.


Today is also my last day of class before exams. I have 2 exams. I really do not want to go... but I feel like if I don't go I might miss something important about the exam... So I will go maybe just for the first half though. 


Intake : 
Breakfast : black coffee and a light activia yogurt with cereal : 165
Lunch : Green beans, some chicken, slice cheese, 2 slices low cal toast : 175
Dinner : Low-fat beef stewed in water on a white bun : 233 
Other : some chocolate.... 52


Total : 625


Out take : 704


TOTAL : -79!! :-)


So I got this new app on my itouch : My Fitness Pal. It's pretty cool. It tracks what you eat, what you exercise, your weight and your goals. It's free. It has a ton of foods in there, even by brand name! I think it will really help me because I can get on it anytime... like when i can't get on here. I am sooo motivated today. I know the food was a lot but i made up for it in exercising! I just made made myself workout for an hour and a half to work off those disgusting calories!!


I was looking through my photos and looking back to when I was 107 and 110 and I looked so good and happy. Then I looked at the pictures when I started purging and was more like 115 and 118 and looked god awful. My cheeks were rosy, my face was sort of puffy and I just look like a balloon. Then I look at pictures of me at 120 without any purging... Just eating like a "normal" person. I don't look all weird in the face anymore but I do look fat. Especially my legs. and bones arent visible at all anymore. Looking through these pictures really makes me want to be back there. thin and happy. I need to be there. so I will be there. I will make concrete goals. 


Think thin everyone!!


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