Friday, September 2, 2011

Reality?

I am beginning to wonder if this is real. Am I really 110? It is hard to believe. I don't feel like I am underweight. Granted it's only a pound underweight. Still... I found myself questioning reality this morning while I was walking the dog. It may seem weird but my favorite time of the day is sunrise. It means the start of a potentially great day and I love the crispness of it. I hope it is real. I don't want to wake up and find out I was dreaming all of this. I don't want to wake up and see that I really am more like 125 again. It is a weird feeling right now.




So last night I managed not to eat after 6:30. That is really impressive for me because I usually have something at night like a little piece of chocolate, a handful of blueberries, a nibble of something or a few pretzels. I didn't even want anything. Odd. 
I weighed in at 110 this morning. The last time I weighed this little I was 16. That's 5 years. How awful. But I am here now and I will keep it that way.
Today might be a little difficult but I am going to do my best. I have a bowl of oatmeal in front of me and I am going to try and not finish it. Then I work from 8-12 and then I am going to lunch and hanging out with my best friend. We are going to this little mediterranean place around the corner. I know they will have healthy options so I have to get one of those. Usually I go for pita and hummus and tzatziki. and we usually split that so I am hoping it goes well. I will try to eat 200-300 for lunch. no more. then I have not made plans for dinner so maybe i can just have a veggie salad no dressing. then my brother's football game.


Saturday and Sunday might be hard for me to get on here... I am going up to visit my family in good old PA. Middle of nowhere. Mountains. Quietness. Beautiful. I love it up there. There is internet but I can't remember if it is wi-fi or not... 


I love you girls!!
Stay strong and thin!!
<3

7 comments:

  1. you're doing so great it's unreal

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  2. You're doing so well. It might be hard to believe, but you've actually done it and you should be proud :)

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  3. You are truly amazing and I think I speak for us all when I say we are so proud of you for making it this far keep going. You are beautiful!

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  4. I find myself doing the SAME thing! Looking at the scale and somehow always expecting to see 123 LBS. But, this morn mine said 110. And I think, "that cant be right, right?" Crazy. But, then I fit into my skinny pants with no muffin top where there used to be one. How do I still feel like a failure? But great job sweetheart you sooo deserve it.
    Stay Strong and Skinny:)
    JP

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  5. Congrats on being 110 you worked so hard for it,you are so amazing :)
    <3 stay strong and stay skinny

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  6. You look taller that 5'5"! Sunrise is my favorite time of day too, for the same reason. Sad cause everyone seems unhappy a lot, and also, I find a lot of them triggering. I'll be okay though. Thanks for your kind words! <3

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  7. I do the same thing. I find it so hard to actually believe what I weigh most of the time.

    The middle of nowhere for a weekend sounds lovely. x

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