Sunday, January 29, 2012

ok girlies. i am determined.

not sure on my weight for the moment. but i am determined to drop a few pounds by sunday. what do you girls think is the most i can lose? 


my big losses: 15 pounds in 4 weeks last august
                        14 pounds in 3 weeks 5 years ago


I want to make a new record. 5 pounds in 6 days? Think I can do it? 


Last night was interesting. Got drunk with my sisters. Fun times. Lots of drinking and dancing. The bad part: in-laws made me go to mexican for lunch yesterday. 
Anyways... i didn't start feeling the hangover until about 2 hours ago. I spent all morning being super productive. I finished one big assignment, then homework in three other classes. Then about 2 hours ago i starting shaking uncontrollably.... kinda weird. i'm still a little shaky but its better.
while lying in bed feeling like shit i realized a few things:

  1. I DO NOT WANT TO BE FAT WHEN THE HUBBY RETURNS
  2. I AM NEVER GOING TO BEAT THIS DISORDER OR WHATEVER YOU WANT TO CALL IT
  3. I HAVE THE MOST STRANGEST DREAMS EVER
  4. I CAN HAVE WLL POWER WHEN I WANT TO
  5. I NEED WILL POWER NOW
So I WILL lose as many pounds and inches as possible. I deleted all of the photos of me at 110 but i printed one out. it is hard to believe i got to 110 and couldn't touch my thighs together unless i crossed them. so i am determined to get to 110 again and i will be there as soon as is humanly possible.

ever play the weigh-in game? it goes like this: weigh yourself. then keep weighing yourself every hour or so until you see the number you want. that is how i got to 110 and it is how i will get there again. 
when i was at 113 i told myself i wouldn't put anything in me until i saw 110 on the scale. it worked.
ok so i have weighed myself just now: 122.4 at 5:53. Not food or drink until I see 121. Then I can have a glass of water.
We will see how it goes. I am in crazy weight loss mode now. 

Love you all!!! Time to comment! I am feeling super motivated!
<3


p.s. - last night's crazy dream: i was walking in some airport and saw russell brand who had a boy friend and the boyfriend was pregnant! then russell tells his pregnant boyfriend to go hit on some 40 year old guy to freak him out. it was hilarious! where do i come up with these things?

4 comments:

  1. Thats weird I have been having the craziest dreams too! You can do it lovely! You will reach your goals! Good luck!
    with love,
    Ell

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  2. wow that sounds crazy but super inspiring! You can do it!!! funny dream! Stay strong<3

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  3. Wow you are so damn motivated, I need to start thinking like you!
    I wish I could carry scales around with me to work every day but unfortunately that can't happen, maybe on weekends when I usually let myself down I can do this and do the complete opposite!?
    Good luck gorgeous!

    Si xx

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  4. What a strange dream! haha, you can real your goals :) Your strategy sounds good! Keep motivated xx

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