Sunday, August 28, 2011
Counting down the minutes and hours....
I keep looking at the clock thinking ok if I can just not eat for 2 more hours then i can have something. One more hour and 10 minutes. One hour and 9 minutes. The minute hand on the clock seems to be going sooo slow and my stomach is telling me it needs to eat. I just want to wait a little longer. Today's calorie allowance is 500. I have had: 220
I had a bowl of fiber cereal for breakfast with a tablespoon of soy milk: 110
I had some tuna on a slice of 40 calorie bread with a thin slice of tomato: 110
I had 2 big cups of coffee black and lots of water.
I want to wait until 6 to start making dinner: veggie salad no dressing no croutons. just lettuce, carrots, pea pods, tomato, edamame, and a little bit of tofu and maybe a little bit of squash and mushrooms. but that sounds like too much so probably no squash and mushrooms. I haven't counted that up yet. i am guessing it will be about 125 which would bring me to 345. so i have 155 left after that. i will probably make some popcorn.
I have been trying to get school work done but I just can't concentrate. i did my physics and yoga homework. still have french and math to do.
I need to be 111. I feel like I have been saying that for so long. I am sorry girls. I will get there eventually.
I am going to see Fleet Foxes in September :-) I can't wait!! I really want to be super skinny then. so i can wear something super cute :-)
i think i might lay down. just so i can stay away from food.
LOVE YOU ALL!!
p.s.- i might throw away the journal but i don't know. i like to keep it so i make sure never to get to that point again. but i may throw it out. i haven't decided.